2 October 09
Haven't blogged for god knows how long.Too busy.
Suddenly i feel that so much has changed after the June holidays.And.....i feel like i lost Mich.
4 months.Just passed by like that.And now, Mich has someone else to dote on her.How did things even change so quickly?
I hope...that person really loves her.Because i lost her to him.In just like what, a month?
Mich isn't coming over tonight.Shes been coming to my house for physics tuition every Friday, and she sleeps over.Thats why i've always been looking forward to Fridays.
I haven't seen her much these days.And sometimes, i'm afraid i'll lose her completely.
Everytime, she gets home, and bathes, before coming over to my house.And everytime, her damp hair has this sweet fragrance.It makes her smell like flowers.I realised.....her hair turns golden brown under sunlight.All this little things about her, i just can't forget.
Fiqal moved out on Wednesday.It was quite surprising.He didn't mention a word about it to Syafiq or Ainnah.Not even Khalid.He just left.
And i've been so afraid, this would prove too much to bear for Mich.But......i realised, shes stronger now.
Was it because of him, by her side?
Maybe.
I really want to see her smile.Hear her laughter, that makes me very happy.I just want to see the cheerful her.The girl who can laugh at almost anything, the girl who always has her signature smile on her face.
Oh well.
Today, saw Syafiq at the void deck.He told me Fiqal hasn't contacted him at all.Ainnah as well.
What are u trying to do Shafiqal?
Friday, October 2, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
24 June 09
BORING.
._. So, Mich is planning to skip piano again tmr.Well.I'm not going to dissuade her from doing so.I know she hates piano lessons now.So i'm just gonna go along with her.After all, i don't want to see her unhappy.
And she was doing a facebook quiz just now, and it was named "What kind of Mask do u wear". And the result was so accurate, because Mich got "Innocence".
Your mask is innocence. You are innocent but not easily impressionable. You always give people the benefit of the doubt, and are nice to everyone you meet. You never really judge anyone, but you sometimes may judge yourself. Everyone who meets you usually adores you, even if you don't really know it. You always think you may be messing up or doing something wrong, but you're usually not. You don't have a problem restricting yourself from things you think you shouldn't do, although sometimes you're a bit curious. Sometimes people try to take advantage of you, but you don't always notice. Over all you're untainted, friendly, and everyone loves you..
And the description is so true.For Mich at least.She doesn't guard against the world at all, and shes just so adorable.Perfectly describes Mich's personality.Haha.
Its raining again.LOL.
Mich doesn't like the rain.Shes afraid of the loud pattering of the raindrops, as well as the thunder.
So.Another boring day ahead. ._.
BORING.
._. So, Mich is planning to skip piano again tmr.Well.I'm not going to dissuade her from doing so.I know she hates piano lessons now.So i'm just gonna go along with her.After all, i don't want to see her unhappy.
And she was doing a facebook quiz just now, and it was named "What kind of Mask do u wear". And the result was so accurate, because Mich got "Innocence".
Your mask is innocence. You are innocent but not easily impressionable. You always give people the benefit of the doubt, and are nice to everyone you meet. You never really judge anyone, but you sometimes may judge yourself. Everyone who meets you usually adores you, even if you don't really know it. You always think you may be messing up or doing something wrong, but you're usually not. You don't have a problem restricting yourself from things you think you shouldn't do, although sometimes you're a bit curious. Sometimes people try to take advantage of you, but you don't always notice. Over all you're untainted, friendly, and everyone loves you..
And the description is so true.For Mich at least.She doesn't guard against the world at all, and shes just so adorable.Perfectly describes Mich's personality.Haha.
Its raining again.LOL.
Mich doesn't like the rain.Shes afraid of the loud pattering of the raindrops, as well as the thunder.
So.Another boring day ahead. ._.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
17 June 09
Another new day.May have to go back to school today.God.
Went out with Mich, Ainnah and Syafiq yesterday.But it was really short.Like 2 hours plus.Because Ainnah lives in Ang Mo Kio now.So yeah, she had to go home early.
Haha.Mich was really happy to see Ainnah.
Slacked in the void deck.Talked and talked.LOL.
I think it was really great.Like, talking about random stuff, and then forgetting about all the exams and things.Haha.
And i got to hear Mich laugh.A lot.Shes seldom so happy.But, Ainnah was there.Of course she was happy.Haha.
And then as usual, the Mich and Syafiq arguement started again.We're so used to it.And they argued and argued about tarot cards. ._. Of course, me and Ainnah stayed out of it.Watching the both of them arguing was like watching a TV show.Haha.
I guess Syafiq and Ainnah are really suited to be together.As in like really suited.
Ainnah's always the matured one.The one who thinks carefully before making any decision, the responsible one.
Syafiq's always so rash.He doesn't even think before he acts.Putting the both of them together is like a perfect match.
Haha.
And then when Mich is put inside the picture, its like a perfect picture.Sometimes i imagine Mich as their daughter.Haha.If she were, they would be a perfect family.
Hahaha.
But anyway, i forgot all about the doll i bought for Mich until yesterday.LOL.And it was so nice seeing her face light up when she saw the doll.
Yeah.Her whole personality lights up when she smiles.
Stayed there until like 6pm plus i think.Then Ainnah went home.
Walked Mich home before going home.
So.Yeah.Great day yesterday.
Another new day.May have to go back to school today.God.
Went out with Mich, Ainnah and Syafiq yesterday.But it was really short.Like 2 hours plus.Because Ainnah lives in Ang Mo Kio now.So yeah, she had to go home early.
Haha.Mich was really happy to see Ainnah.
Slacked in the void deck.Talked and talked.LOL.
I think it was really great.Like, talking about random stuff, and then forgetting about all the exams and things.Haha.
And i got to hear Mich laugh.A lot.Shes seldom so happy.But, Ainnah was there.Of course she was happy.Haha.
And then as usual, the Mich and Syafiq arguement started again.We're so used to it.And they argued and argued about tarot cards. ._. Of course, me and Ainnah stayed out of it.Watching the both of them arguing was like watching a TV show.Haha.
I guess Syafiq and Ainnah are really suited to be together.As in like really suited.
Ainnah's always the matured one.The one who thinks carefully before making any decision, the responsible one.
Syafiq's always so rash.He doesn't even think before he acts.Putting the both of them together is like a perfect match.
Haha.
And then when Mich is put inside the picture, its like a perfect picture.Sometimes i imagine Mich as their daughter.Haha.If she were, they would be a perfect family.
Hahaha.
But anyway, i forgot all about the doll i bought for Mich until yesterday.LOL.And it was so nice seeing her face light up when she saw the doll.
Yeah.Her whole personality lights up when she smiles.
Stayed there until like 6pm plus i think.Then Ainnah went home.
Walked Mich home before going home.
So.Yeah.Great day yesterday.
Monday, June 15, 2009
15 June 09
Another boring day today.And Mich isn't talking to me again.She just forgave me and now, shes ignoring me again.
She called me last night.And i think its kind of funny.Because she was almost screaming.And u know shes especially cute when shes angry.
So.Yeah.Shes ignoring me now.But Derrick told me she would talk to me soon.Yeah.Soon.I guess.
Went out in the morning with Khalid and Syafiq.Okay we didn't really GO OUT.We went to Syafiq's house.His parents were both out so its like yeah, we had the whole house to ourselves.Haha.
Talked random stuffs.But the two were practically having a cold war.
Because of Ainnah.Haha.
Stayed there until around lunchtime.Went T mart for lunch.
Went to watch Hannah Montana:The Movie with Mich yesterday.Well, the cinema was really empty.Like only us and another 3 families.So yeah, it was really quiet.Haha.
I guess the show was quite nice.Doesn't really matter, as long as Mich liked it.
Walked around Vivo.Had lunch at Food Republic.
And we went to Daiso.Didn't really know why we went there.Haha.
Took the MRT home.And the silly girl fell asleep on the train.Haha.It was a really long ride home, so i guess she was tired.
Walked her home.And we saw Fiqal at the void deck.
Was it really that coincidental?Okay nvm.I should stop imagining things.
Haha.Off for dinner!
Another boring day today.And Mich isn't talking to me again.She just forgave me and now, shes ignoring me again.
She called me last night.And i think its kind of funny.Because she was almost screaming.And u know shes especially cute when shes angry.
So.Yeah.Shes ignoring me now.But Derrick told me she would talk to me soon.Yeah.Soon.I guess.
Went out in the morning with Khalid and Syafiq.Okay we didn't really GO OUT.We went to Syafiq's house.His parents were both out so its like yeah, we had the whole house to ourselves.Haha.
Talked random stuffs.But the two were practically having a cold war.
Because of Ainnah.Haha.
Stayed there until around lunchtime.Went T mart for lunch.
Went to watch Hannah Montana:The Movie with Mich yesterday.Well, the cinema was really empty.Like only us and another 3 families.So yeah, it was really quiet.Haha.
I guess the show was quite nice.Doesn't really matter, as long as Mich liked it.
Walked around Vivo.Had lunch at Food Republic.
And we went to Daiso.Didn't really know why we went there.Haha.
Took the MRT home.And the silly girl fell asleep on the train.Haha.It was a really long ride home, so i guess she was tired.
Walked her home.And we saw Fiqal at the void deck.
Was it really that coincidental?Okay nvm.I should stop imagining things.
Haha.Off for dinner!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
11 June 09
GOD DAMN.
Mich is totally ignoring me right now.I know me and Tina have both hurt her badly.She trusted us so much, and we lied to her.
But i was really afraid she wouldn't be able to accept the fact.That me and Tina used to be a couple.
And I read her blog.And i'm really worried.
I have a really bad feeling right now.Everything has hit her at the same time.I'm afraid she won't be able to take all the blows.
Ainnah's faced with alot of problems as well.But i don't have to worry about Ainnah, she has always been a sensible girl.And i know she will be able to face her problems with a matured mind.
But then Mich is different.Shes like a little glass doll.So precious, but just one wrong move and she will shatter to pieces.
She can't take all this problems, she can't face them by herself.And now, theres no one to help her.No one by her side.
I should be with her right now.I should be facing her problems with her.But i'm not.She doesn't even want to see me.
I'm really worried about u princess, could u please reply my smses?Please?I'm really desperate now.
I really can't imagine how shes feeling right now.Lost, afraid, trying to find her way out in the dark.
Sweetheart, please let me help, at least for now, please.
God damn, god damn, god damn!!I'm so god damn stupid!!So god damn useless!!
Mich has never been strong.But shes always acting strong.And she keeps everything to herself.Just bottles them all up inside her heart.
How much more can she take??
GOD DAMN.
Mich is totally ignoring me right now.I know me and Tina have both hurt her badly.She trusted us so much, and we lied to her.
But i was really afraid she wouldn't be able to accept the fact.That me and Tina used to be a couple.
And I read her blog.And i'm really worried.
I have a really bad feeling right now.Everything has hit her at the same time.I'm afraid she won't be able to take all the blows.
Ainnah's faced with alot of problems as well.But i don't have to worry about Ainnah, she has always been a sensible girl.And i know she will be able to face her problems with a matured mind.
But then Mich is different.Shes like a little glass doll.So precious, but just one wrong move and she will shatter to pieces.
She can't take all this problems, she can't face them by herself.And now, theres no one to help her.No one by her side.
I should be with her right now.I should be facing her problems with her.But i'm not.She doesn't even want to see me.
I'm really worried about u princess, could u please reply my smses?Please?I'm really desperate now.
I really can't imagine how shes feeling right now.Lost, afraid, trying to find her way out in the dark.
Sweetheart, please let me help, at least for now, please.
God damn, god damn, god damn!!I'm so god damn stupid!!So god damn useless!!
Mich has never been strong.But shes always acting strong.And she keeps everything to herself.Just bottles them all up inside her heart.
How much more can she take??
Monday, June 8, 2009
8 June 09
Alright so i'm now blogging in Malaysia.Haha.In KL right now.Cause my maternal grandparents are here.So its some sort of like a family visit kind of thing.
Doesn't feel much different being in Singapore or Malaysia.Except for one very obvious fact: Mich isn't here.Yeah, so thats whats constantly reminding me i'm in Malaysia.
So.There was some sort of night fair last night near our hotel.So i went down with Abang to walk around.
If only Mich was there with me, i can almost imagine how she will react to everything.Can almost see her jumping up and down with delight, looking around excitedly at everything, holding a stick of cotton candy in her hands, squealing with joy at seeing the little dolls they sell there...
An image of pure and naive joy.Mich has always liked going to these night fairs.Haha.And anyway, bought quite a number of things.
There was this stall that was beautifully decorated with little dolls and stuffs, selling necklaces made of wooden beads carved intricately.
And i bought a little doll and a necklace for Mich.Of course, Abang knew straightaway who i bought them for.
Walked around till about 11pm plus.Then walked back to the hotel.Thank god my parents sleep in a separate room from me and Abang.Otherwise, i would have to start explaining who i bought the little doll for.
Coming back to Singapore tmr.Great.I can't wait to give Mich the doll and the necklace.She would be delighted.Haha.
Smsed her the last two nights.I'm so sorry sweetheart, haven't been in contact with u the past few days.
I'll be back tmr, haha.And yes Khalid?
I'm not gonna deny the fact that i'm coming back early because i miss Mich.Cause i do.Haha.
Alright so i'm now blogging in Malaysia.Haha.In KL right now.Cause my maternal grandparents are here.So its some sort of like a family visit kind of thing.
Doesn't feel much different being in Singapore or Malaysia.Except for one very obvious fact: Mich isn't here.Yeah, so thats whats constantly reminding me i'm in Malaysia.
So.There was some sort of night fair last night near our hotel.So i went down with Abang to walk around.
If only Mich was there with me, i can almost imagine how she will react to everything.Can almost see her jumping up and down with delight, looking around excitedly at everything, holding a stick of cotton candy in her hands, squealing with joy at seeing the little dolls they sell there...
An image of pure and naive joy.Mich has always liked going to these night fairs.Haha.And anyway, bought quite a number of things.
There was this stall that was beautifully decorated with little dolls and stuffs, selling necklaces made of wooden beads carved intricately.
And i bought a little doll and a necklace for Mich.Of course, Abang knew straightaway who i bought them for.
Walked around till about 11pm plus.Then walked back to the hotel.Thank god my parents sleep in a separate room from me and Abang.Otherwise, i would have to start explaining who i bought the little doll for.
Coming back to Singapore tmr.Great.I can't wait to give Mich the doll and the necklace.She would be delighted.Haha.
Smsed her the last two nights.I'm so sorry sweetheart, haven't been in contact with u the past few days.
I'll be back tmr, haha.And yes Khalid?
I'm not gonna deny the fact that i'm coming back early because i miss Mich.Cause i do.Haha.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
30 May 09
CONGRATS MICH SWEETHEART! You topped the class this time round!Haha, i'm so proud of you.And whats more, u're third in the whole level!Thats a really great achievement.
So.Slacked with Mich, Syafiq and Ainnah at the void deck ytd.And oh yah, congrats to Ainnah as well for achieving 6 for her L1R5.^^
Mich cried.It really broke my heart to see her cry.Its like, she was crying so badly, it caused me alot of heartache.
Shes always been so innocent, so gullible.I still rmb the very first time i met her.And i wanted to borrow her scooter.And she lent it to me so willingly, without even hesitating.And i didn't even know her then.
She doesn't guard against the world at all, making her so innocent and naive.Maybe thats why Syafiq and Ainnah dote on her so much.Because shes like a child who never grows up.Silly girl.
And maybe thats why i'm drawn to her like a magnet.U know i've always felt this strong urge to protect her.To shield her from the ugliness of this world.
Little blur princess.
Went out with her and YOU KNOW WHO earlier on.We went down to TM Popular to look for assessment books.
And i SERIOUSLY can't stand that little brat of a girl.She sticks to Mich like glue.GOD.
Going out for dinner with my family.
CONGRATS MICH SWEETHEART! You topped the class this time round!Haha, i'm so proud of you.And whats more, u're third in the whole level!Thats a really great achievement.
So.Slacked with Mich, Syafiq and Ainnah at the void deck ytd.And oh yah, congrats to Ainnah as well for achieving 6 for her L1R5.^^
Mich cried.It really broke my heart to see her cry.Its like, she was crying so badly, it caused me alot of heartache.
Shes always been so innocent, so gullible.I still rmb the very first time i met her.And i wanted to borrow her scooter.And she lent it to me so willingly, without even hesitating.And i didn't even know her then.
She doesn't guard against the world at all, making her so innocent and naive.Maybe thats why Syafiq and Ainnah dote on her so much.Because shes like a child who never grows up.Silly girl.
And maybe thats why i'm drawn to her like a magnet.U know i've always felt this strong urge to protect her.To shield her from the ugliness of this world.
Little blur princess.
Went out with her and YOU KNOW WHO earlier on.We went down to TM Popular to look for assessment books.
And i SERIOUSLY can't stand that little brat of a girl.She sticks to Mich like glue.GOD.
Going out for dinner with my family.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
16 May 09
Another day over.
Okay look Tina, i don't care what u say, u don't understand at all alright?So before getting ur facts right, please stop going around accusing people.
I love Mich alright?More than u can imagine.U've only known her for like wad?4 months? How much do u actually understand?
Super pissed off.
Had breakfast with Mich this morning.Walked her to tuition.Then went home.Used the com and surfed the net for some time.Then went to the void deck to slack with Khalid and Syafiq.
Mich came to join us after having lunch with YOU KNOW WHO.Slacked awhile.Talked about random stuffs.Everyone agreed that she seems cheerier than before.We're all glad to see u happy sweetheart.And i'm sure, esp ur Kakak and Abang.They've both been longing to see u smile and laugh like the past.
Then she went home.Had to study Physics.Haha.
Stayed at the void deck till around 3pm.Then went home.I didn't know wad to do at all the whole day.Listened to my i pod.Surfed the net.Watched TV.Ate potato chips.I seriously feel so dead today.
I could see that the incident about Fiqal's younger brother hanging out with those hooligans is still troubling Mich.Thats SO like her.Worrying all the time about other people.She shouldn't even care.I mean.Thats his business.If he wants to ruin his life, he can go ahead.If not for Mich, i wouldn't even care.
Went out for dinner with my family.AND HELL.Saw Syahira.Migod.And she gave me this look.Just ignored her.Besides, my family was there.
And then saw Tina with Zul at Mac.Well those two really suit.They're both trouble makers.Perfectly matched together. ._.
Why can't Mich just be a good girl and hang out with nice people like LiTing and Rashid, Atika, Gracie.Tina had to come into her life and cause chaos.
And now, those two stick together like a bee stuck to honey.They are seriously inseparable.Mich is going to get influenced by tat brat of a gal soon enough.
Hmpf.
And i try NOT to complain about Tina in front of Mich.I know it makes her unhappy that we both can't get along.
Mich seemed to be alittle troubled when i called her to chat earlier on.She's such a sensitive girl.I know she tends to get alittle over sensitive sometimes, thinks too much into things.Her imagination goes alittle wild.
Shes the kind of girl that needs protection.Someone whos simple minded.Forgetful, clumsy, blur, silly little Mich.
I really hope for the day the shadow hanging over u will disappear forever.The day u will walk out of ur past, and embrace the future.
Because i know, u're still hanging on.Holding on to that tiny little hope, that one day, things between ur family and Fiqal's family will go back to how it used to be before.Instead of all the unhappiness now, all the bad talk, all the gossips, the secrets.
Another day over.
Okay look Tina, i don't care what u say, u don't understand at all alright?So before getting ur facts right, please stop going around accusing people.
I love Mich alright?More than u can imagine.U've only known her for like wad?4 months? How much do u actually understand?
Super pissed off.
Had breakfast with Mich this morning.Walked her to tuition.Then went home.Used the com and surfed the net for some time.Then went to the void deck to slack with Khalid and Syafiq.
Mich came to join us after having lunch with YOU KNOW WHO.Slacked awhile.Talked about random stuffs.Everyone agreed that she seems cheerier than before.We're all glad to see u happy sweetheart.And i'm sure, esp ur Kakak and Abang.They've both been longing to see u smile and laugh like the past.
Then she went home.Had to study Physics.Haha.
Stayed at the void deck till around 3pm.Then went home.I didn't know wad to do at all the whole day.Listened to my i pod.Surfed the net.Watched TV.Ate potato chips.I seriously feel so dead today.
I could see that the incident about Fiqal's younger brother hanging out with those hooligans is still troubling Mich.Thats SO like her.Worrying all the time about other people.She shouldn't even care.I mean.Thats his business.If he wants to ruin his life, he can go ahead.If not for Mich, i wouldn't even care.
Went out for dinner with my family.AND HELL.Saw Syahira.Migod.And she gave me this look.Just ignored her.Besides, my family was there.
And then saw Tina with Zul at Mac.Well those two really suit.They're both trouble makers.Perfectly matched together. ._.
Why can't Mich just be a good girl and hang out with nice people like LiTing and Rashid, Atika, Gracie.Tina had to come into her life and cause chaos.
And now, those two stick together like a bee stuck to honey.They are seriously inseparable.Mich is going to get influenced by tat brat of a gal soon enough.
Hmpf.
And i try NOT to complain about Tina in front of Mich.I know it makes her unhappy that we both can't get along.
Mich seemed to be alittle troubled when i called her to chat earlier on.She's such a sensitive girl.I know she tends to get alittle over sensitive sometimes, thinks too much into things.Her imagination goes alittle wild.
Shes the kind of girl that needs protection.Someone whos simple minded.Forgetful, clumsy, blur, silly little Mich.
I really hope for the day the shadow hanging over u will disappear forever.The day u will walk out of ur past, and embrace the future.
Because i know, u're still hanging on.Holding on to that tiny little hope, that one day, things between ur family and Fiqal's family will go back to how it used to be before.Instead of all the unhappiness now, all the bad talk, all the gossips, the secrets.
Friday, May 15, 2009
15 May 09
I feel so much better today.Had lunch with Mich at T1 again before she went to meet LiTing, Rashid and Derrick.
She seemed so much more cheerful than the past few days.I'm really glad shes changing back to who she used to be.So quickly.Its like shes never changed at all.
We were laughing throughout lunch.I really missed her laughter.
Welcome back sweetheart.U're halfway through on the road home.
Wanted to have dinner with her just now.She called me from East Point, asking me to bring an umbrella for her.It was raining really heavily.The silly girl, she was afraid her umbrella might just turn inside out.Haha.
So waited for her at Tmart bus stop.
But she was eating dinner with Tina.Okay...so i didn't have dinner with her in the end.I've never made my dislike for Tina a secret.Tina hasn't made her dislike for ME a secret either.Lame.
Had dinner with Khalid instead.
And i know Mich is really concerned about Fiqal's younger brother getting involved with this group of hooligans.
Saw him today too.And hell.I just realised who those people are.One of them was Syahira's older brother.The rest were his friends.
OF ALL PEOPLE.Okay GREAT.So.I went over with Khalid.And Fiqal's younger brother looked alittle pissed off.He didn't want to go home even though we tried.
And i think we just pissed Syahira's brother off.GREAT.
I seriously don't feel good about this.Syahira's abang is really some gangster.He smokes.And his parents don't seem to care.Like I DO.
Its just tat, its a bad influence to Syahira.And i'm afraid of something else.
Given the way Syahira hates Mich, i'm afraid she might just do something stupid.Like asking her brother to take revenge for her or something.
Kay this is so dramatic.I'm just thinking too much.
Just worried about Mich.But anyway, i'm really glad shes become so much more cheerful. ^^
But i read her blog.And.She still cares about Fiqal after all.I was just plain naive to think that she would actually forget about him.How long will it take for u to forget him Mich?A year?2 years?
Thing is, its already been 8 years.And since u parted ways 3 years ago, i know u have never gotten over him.Why sweetheart?
I feel so much better today.Had lunch with Mich at T1 again before she went to meet LiTing, Rashid and Derrick.
She seemed so much more cheerful than the past few days.I'm really glad shes changing back to who she used to be.So quickly.Its like shes never changed at all.
We were laughing throughout lunch.I really missed her laughter.
Welcome back sweetheart.U're halfway through on the road home.
Wanted to have dinner with her just now.She called me from East Point, asking me to bring an umbrella for her.It was raining really heavily.The silly girl, she was afraid her umbrella might just turn inside out.Haha.
So waited for her at Tmart bus stop.
But she was eating dinner with Tina.Okay...so i didn't have dinner with her in the end.I've never made my dislike for Tina a secret.Tina hasn't made her dislike for ME a secret either.Lame.
Had dinner with Khalid instead.
And i know Mich is really concerned about Fiqal's younger brother getting involved with this group of hooligans.
Saw him today too.And hell.I just realised who those people are.One of them was Syahira's older brother.The rest were his friends.
OF ALL PEOPLE.Okay GREAT.So.I went over with Khalid.And Fiqal's younger brother looked alittle pissed off.He didn't want to go home even though we tried.
And i think we just pissed Syahira's brother off.GREAT.
I seriously don't feel good about this.Syahira's abang is really some gangster.He smokes.And his parents don't seem to care.Like I DO.
Its just tat, its a bad influence to Syahira.And i'm afraid of something else.
Given the way Syahira hates Mich, i'm afraid she might just do something stupid.Like asking her brother to take revenge for her or something.
Kay this is so dramatic.I'm just thinking too much.
Just worried about Mich.But anyway, i'm really glad shes become so much more cheerful. ^^
But i read her blog.And.She still cares about Fiqal after all.I was just plain naive to think that she would actually forget about him.How long will it take for u to forget him Mich?A year?2 years?
Thing is, its already been 8 years.And since u parted ways 3 years ago, i know u have never gotten over him.Why sweetheart?
Monday, May 11, 2009
11 May 09
Another day over again.
Had dinner with Mich at Thai Express in Tampines 1 ytd.Its been a few weeks since i last went out with her.I realised shes become noticeably quiet.
She used to talk alot.Laughing about every single thing.But at least shes trying to change.Trying to be herself again.I could see she was making the effort, trying to comment on everything i said.
Maybe it'll take some time.For her to go back to being who she was before.But its okay.As long as the bubbly gal we all used to know comes back.
So.She told me how scared she was for Biology.And she was totally freaking out.Haha and her expression as she told me about what she had to memorise was so comical.
Walked around for awhile before heading for the interchange.
The bus ride home was really silent.Mich just sat beside me staring out the window.I know she was lost in her own thoughts again.So i didn't say anything to disturb her.
I think it was good to let her have some time to just sit quietly and think about things.
Walked her home before walking back.This is the good thing about staying just two blocks away from Mich.
Got home and immediately Khalid called.Started our usual random talk again.And he was practically praising Ainnah to the skies.
Said how much he liked her and all tat.He even wanted to involve Mich in his "Get Ainnah to fall for him" plan.I think it would have worked out since Ainnah dotes on Mich so much, and considering the fact that the closest person to Ainnah is Mich, it might just be a success.
But i told him not to.Its not the right time now.Mich is still on the road back to finding herself.I don't want anything to disrupt her.
So there goes his plan.Haha.
Nothing much happened today either.Just the same usual things.
Met Fiqal on the way home today.He was just staring into space sitting in the void deck.
That was your best friend once Daniel, i kept telling myself.
And he saw me.He asked how was Mich.I think tat is so ridiculous, because he practically sees her every single day.I mean, she lives just next to him!
But he told me sometimes, he doesn't even see her for a whole week.Okay...
My mind's in a mess.Need some time to myself right now.
Another day over again.
Had dinner with Mich at Thai Express in Tampines 1 ytd.Its been a few weeks since i last went out with her.I realised shes become noticeably quiet.
She used to talk alot.Laughing about every single thing.But at least shes trying to change.Trying to be herself again.I could see she was making the effort, trying to comment on everything i said.
Maybe it'll take some time.For her to go back to being who she was before.But its okay.As long as the bubbly gal we all used to know comes back.
So.She told me how scared she was for Biology.And she was totally freaking out.Haha and her expression as she told me about what she had to memorise was so comical.
Walked around for awhile before heading for the interchange.
The bus ride home was really silent.Mich just sat beside me staring out the window.I know she was lost in her own thoughts again.So i didn't say anything to disturb her.
I think it was good to let her have some time to just sit quietly and think about things.
Walked her home before walking back.This is the good thing about staying just two blocks away from Mich.
Got home and immediately Khalid called.Started our usual random talk again.And he was practically praising Ainnah to the skies.
Said how much he liked her and all tat.He even wanted to involve Mich in his "Get Ainnah to fall for him" plan.I think it would have worked out since Ainnah dotes on Mich so much, and considering the fact that the closest person to Ainnah is Mich, it might just be a success.
But i told him not to.Its not the right time now.Mich is still on the road back to finding herself.I don't want anything to disrupt her.
So there goes his plan.Haha.
Nothing much happened today either.Just the same usual things.
Met Fiqal on the way home today.He was just staring into space sitting in the void deck.
That was your best friend once Daniel, i kept telling myself.
And he saw me.He asked how was Mich.I think tat is so ridiculous, because he practically sees her every single day.I mean, she lives just next to him!
But he told me sometimes, he doesn't even see her for a whole week.Okay...
My mind's in a mess.Need some time to myself right now.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
9 May 2009
Its been like how many months since i last posted.Okay so everything has been going well so far.I think my blog is REALLY dead.
Been quite busy with school.Studying at TPJC.Khalid is in ITE.Well, he has never really gotten good results anyway.And he doesn't seem to care.
I'm really worried about Mich.Shes really too stressed up now.Its probably the stress of being in a thriple science class.Shes afraid of losing.But she never used to be like tat.
I'm afraid she might just break down one day.But i talked to her last nite.I told her about who she used to be.I really hope she will think it through, and then go back to being who she was before.Happy, smiling, carefree.
I really miss her laughter.Its been a really long time, since i last saw a genuine smile on her face.Theres always a tightness in her smile nowadays, it never used to be there.
And Syafiq isn't really having the best time right now.He and Khalid don't mix anymore.God, and Ainnah is stuck between the two of them.Can't imagine how it feels like.
Everything seems to be changing right now.I don't know how, or why, but somehow, it just feels like everything is falling apart.Like the friendship, between all of us who grew up together, is going to break apart soon.
I'm really tired of trying to hold everyone together.Trying to keep the peace, trying to make everyone happy.
The only joy i get is seeing Mich.Talking to her on the phone, tutoring her, and most of all hearing her laugh.That is like so rare now.
Really hope her Mid year exams will be over soon.Then i could spend more time with her.She really needs to relax.
Besides her stress, i know part of her unhappiness is because of HIM.I know hes still a shadow thats following her.I know she still can't put him down completely.But why?
Why Mich?Does he really mean so much to you?
Its been like how many months since i last posted.Okay so everything has been going well so far.I think my blog is REALLY dead.
Been quite busy with school.Studying at TPJC.Khalid is in ITE.Well, he has never really gotten good results anyway.And he doesn't seem to care.
I'm really worried about Mich.Shes really too stressed up now.Its probably the stress of being in a thriple science class.Shes afraid of losing.But she never used to be like tat.
I'm afraid she might just break down one day.But i talked to her last nite.I told her about who she used to be.I really hope she will think it through, and then go back to being who she was before.Happy, smiling, carefree.
I really miss her laughter.Its been a really long time, since i last saw a genuine smile on her face.Theres always a tightness in her smile nowadays, it never used to be there.
And Syafiq isn't really having the best time right now.He and Khalid don't mix anymore.God, and Ainnah is stuck between the two of them.Can't imagine how it feels like.
Everything seems to be changing right now.I don't know how, or why, but somehow, it just feels like everything is falling apart.Like the friendship, between all of us who grew up together, is going to break apart soon.
I'm really tired of trying to hold everyone together.Trying to keep the peace, trying to make everyone happy.
The only joy i get is seeing Mich.Talking to her on the phone, tutoring her, and most of all hearing her laugh.That is like so rare now.
Really hope her Mid year exams will be over soon.Then i could spend more time with her.She really needs to relax.
Besides her stress, i know part of her unhappiness is because of HIM.I know hes still a shadow thats following her.I know she still can't put him down completely.But why?
Why Mich?Does he really mean so much to you?
Monday, December 29, 2008
29 Dec 08
GOD.
I havent blogged for like 3 weeks??!Was in no mood to blog.MOODLESS u can say.DAMN.Freaking boring these days.Waiting for results.
And the worst is tat Mich is ignoring me.IGNORING.GOD.All Khalid's fault.
And i didnt even know he has a secret crush on Ainnah since like 2 YEARS AGO.Migod.He could have like TOLD ME.
And Mich is starting sch soon.Which means she will have lesser and lesser time for me.=( BOO.
This is not happening.DAMN.
And im also in a state of like CONFUSION??
My mind was in a blank the past few days.And all i did was watch TV, eat, sleep, drink, stare at my com.DUD.
Like a zombie.GOSH.
GOD.
I havent blogged for like 3 weeks??!Was in no mood to blog.MOODLESS u can say.DAMN.Freaking boring these days.Waiting for results.
And the worst is tat Mich is ignoring me.IGNORING.GOD.All Khalid's fault.
And i didnt even know he has a secret crush on Ainnah since like 2 YEARS AGO.Migod.He could have like TOLD ME.
And Mich is starting sch soon.Which means she will have lesser and lesser time for me.=( BOO.
This is not happening.DAMN.
And im also in a state of like CONFUSION??
My mind was in a blank the past few days.And all i did was watch TV, eat, sleep, drink, stare at my com.DUD.
Like a zombie.GOSH.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
10 Dec 08
WEDNESDAY.
Boring.
Mich is going out wit Liting and Rashid today.SO which means i wont see her for the rest of the day.=(
Went Bugis Village wit Khalid and Faiz and Syafiq ytd.It was like crammed wit ppl and even foreigners go there to buy clothes.OKAY?
So i bought two pair of jeans and a cardigan while Khalid bought one top.The other two were like BORED so they left earlier to walk over to Bugis Junction.
Met them there ard 2pm and ate lunch.
Aft tat i was bored and called Mich.
She was like so panicky about her piano assessment tis Sunday.Hahahahhas.She ar,who ask her so late then start practising?
LOL.And she was so scared and said tat she would practise the whole day on Thurs, Fri and Sat.LOL.Silly girl.
I dont know wad im going to do today.
Watch a movie?Go cycling?Go shopping?Hang out at the void decks?
DUDs.Im SO BORED.
And tat idiot Syafiq.I saw his tag at Mich's blog.Hahahhhas.He actually went to scold her on my behalf.LOL.
I dont mind even if she doesnt really care about me.As long as shes not ignoring or avoiding me.I really dont mind.
I know she's still living in the past, and i want to be the one to pull her back into reality.To show her tat reality, can be as beautiful as the past.
Happily ever afters do exist Mich, and i want to be the one to show u.
WEDNESDAY.
Boring.
Mich is going out wit Liting and Rashid today.SO which means i wont see her for the rest of the day.=(
Went Bugis Village wit Khalid and Faiz and Syafiq ytd.It was like crammed wit ppl and even foreigners go there to buy clothes.OKAY?
So i bought two pair of jeans and a cardigan while Khalid bought one top.The other two were like BORED so they left earlier to walk over to Bugis Junction.
Met them there ard 2pm and ate lunch.
Aft tat i was bored and called Mich.
She was like so panicky about her piano assessment tis Sunday.Hahahahhas.She ar,who ask her so late then start practising?
LOL.And she was so scared and said tat she would practise the whole day on Thurs, Fri and Sat.LOL.Silly girl.
I dont know wad im going to do today.
Watch a movie?Go cycling?Go shopping?Hang out at the void decks?
DUDs.Im SO BORED.
And tat idiot Syafiq.I saw his tag at Mich's blog.Hahahhhas.He actually went to scold her on my behalf.LOL.
I dont mind even if she doesnt really care about me.As long as shes not ignoring or avoiding me.I really dont mind.
I know she's still living in the past, and i want to be the one to pull her back into reality.To show her tat reality, can be as beautiful as the past.
Happily ever afters do exist Mich, and i want to be the one to show u.
Friday, November 28, 2008
28 Nov 08
FRIDAY.
So ytd was quite an eventful day for ME.In the mornin woke up and went to TM to meet Syafiq and Khalid.Then we ate breakfast together at Mac and chit chatted about some stuff.
Then Syafiq had things to do so he went off first while me and Khalid walked around TM.It was kinda boring.And i bought a new pair of CONVERSE SHOES.Went home ard 1pm and ate lunch.
Then i got DAMN bored and so i went to T-mart.I dont know for wad oso.Just went there and walked walked walked in circles.IM SO LAME.
Then i saw Syahira and Ara and the usual few, so i turned ard and tried to avoid them, and ran off.DUD.
WTH is wrong wit me???I ran away from a stupid grp of GIRLS??!!
SO not me.Then went into Watsons to buy some daily things and saw Ainnah there.DUD.It would be even better if i saw Mich.And BINGO she told me she was meeting Mich at the playground.YAYY.
So of cos i tagged along.Then walk walk walk wit Ainnah and talked about some school stuff.
LOL.I dont know wad kind of expression tat was on Mich's face when she saw me.SHe gave me tis "WAD THE HELL ARE U DOING HERE" look.HAHHAHAs.Tat gal.
And i jus ignored.DUD.
Then talk talk talk with the two of them.I cant believe we actually spent like 2 hours at the playground slacking.
I miss the old playground.They tore it down and built a new one.
I know Mich misses it more than any of us.Including Syafiq,Ainnah,me,Syahira,evryone who grew up together wit her.
And i know the reason why.
It was one of the only places besides the void deck tat still kept the memories of the past when Fiqal was still by her side.
Fiqal still hasnt moved out.DARN HIM.Why isnt he moving out YEEEETTT???
When hes gone, Mich will be able to walk out of tat shadow.Its been haunting her for the past two years, and its all because Fiqal's still here.As soon as hes gone, she will be able to find her self again.
As soon as hes gone...will he EVER be gone??
FRIDAY.
So ytd was quite an eventful day for ME.In the mornin woke up and went to TM to meet Syafiq and Khalid.Then we ate breakfast together at Mac and chit chatted about some stuff.
Then Syafiq had things to do so he went off first while me and Khalid walked around TM.It was kinda boring.And i bought a new pair of CONVERSE SHOES.Went home ard 1pm and ate lunch.
Then i got DAMN bored and so i went to T-mart.I dont know for wad oso.Just went there and walked walked walked in circles.IM SO LAME.
Then i saw Syahira and Ara and the usual few, so i turned ard and tried to avoid them, and ran off.DUD.
WTH is wrong wit me???I ran away from a stupid grp of GIRLS??!!
SO not me.Then went into Watsons to buy some daily things and saw Ainnah there.DUD.It would be even better if i saw Mich.And BINGO she told me she was meeting Mich at the playground.YAYY.
So of cos i tagged along.Then walk walk walk wit Ainnah and talked about some school stuff.
LOL.I dont know wad kind of expression tat was on Mich's face when she saw me.SHe gave me tis "WAD THE HELL ARE U DOING HERE" look.HAHHAHAs.Tat gal.
And i jus ignored.DUD.
Then talk talk talk with the two of them.I cant believe we actually spent like 2 hours at the playground slacking.
I miss the old playground.They tore it down and built a new one.
I know Mich misses it more than any of us.Including Syafiq,Ainnah,me,Syahira,evryone who grew up together wit her.
And i know the reason why.
It was one of the only places besides the void deck tat still kept the memories of the past when Fiqal was still by her side.
Fiqal still hasnt moved out.DARN HIM.Why isnt he moving out YEEEETTT???
When hes gone, Mich will be able to walk out of tat shadow.Its been haunting her for the past two years, and its all because Fiqal's still here.As soon as hes gone, she will be able to find her self again.
As soon as hes gone...will he EVER be gone??
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
25 Nov 08
All i can say about the past few days is: DAMN BORING.
WTH.The wkends are for u to go out and have fun wit ur frens,and u noe wad?I spent the whole of my weekend at home.FREAKING STUPID.Except on Sat i went out wit Khalid and Faiz.It was actually quite boring as well.And they told me tat evryting's boring to me without Mich.
HELL YEAH.
I wonder wad she does at home.She doesnt reply my msgs often.Doesnt pick up my phone calls.DUD.So i tink im going crazy thinking about wad exactly shes doing.
I was superrrrrrrrr lame ytd.I had nth to do so i picked up my phone and i dont know WHY but somehow i dialled Ainnah's number.And it was 4am in the morning.Someone call the police, im almost sure im crazy.
And SOMEHOW, she picked up the phone.MIGOD.Shes awake.
And then started talking to her about some random stuff,complained to her about Mich not taking my phone calls,ranting and ranting.
I guess the best person to ask for advice will be Mich's best best best best ever friend, which i guess will either be Ainnah or Li Ting.
So i started asking her all sorts of tings, like wad type of flowers Mich likes.And guess wad?She told me Mich HATES FLOWERS.Woah.
Shes really unique isnt she?Hahahaahs.
I guess its cos of her allergy problem and maybe flowers trigger it.So flowers are OUT.And then i asked her wad soft toys Mich likes.And she told me Piglet,teddies,etc...but NEVER EVER get her a life sized doll.
Shes terrified of LIFE SIZED DOLLS.MUAHAHA.U never KNOWWW, in the middle of the night................ur doll may just.............start..............to...........imagine the rest urself.
So dolls are out as well.
Talked talked talked till 5am then Ainnah got sleepy again.Hanged up but i still couldnt sleep.
DAMNATION.
DUDS.BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORED.Im going to find someting to munch on.BUH BYE PPL.
All i can say about the past few days is: DAMN BORING.
WTH.The wkends are for u to go out and have fun wit ur frens,and u noe wad?I spent the whole of my weekend at home.FREAKING STUPID.Except on Sat i went out wit Khalid and Faiz.It was actually quite boring as well.And they told me tat evryting's boring to me without Mich.
HELL YEAH.
I wonder wad she does at home.She doesnt reply my msgs often.Doesnt pick up my phone calls.DUD.So i tink im going crazy thinking about wad exactly shes doing.
I was superrrrrrrrr lame ytd.I had nth to do so i picked up my phone and i dont know WHY but somehow i dialled Ainnah's number.And it was 4am in the morning.Someone call the police, im almost sure im crazy.
And SOMEHOW, she picked up the phone.MIGOD.Shes awake.
And then started talking to her about some random stuff,complained to her about Mich not taking my phone calls,ranting and ranting.
I guess the best person to ask for advice will be Mich's best best best best ever friend, which i guess will either be Ainnah or Li Ting.
So i started asking her all sorts of tings, like wad type of flowers Mich likes.And guess wad?She told me Mich HATES FLOWERS.Woah.
Shes really unique isnt she?Hahahaahs.
I guess its cos of her allergy problem and maybe flowers trigger it.So flowers are OUT.And then i asked her wad soft toys Mich likes.And she told me Piglet,teddies,etc...but NEVER EVER get her a life sized doll.
Shes terrified of LIFE SIZED DOLLS.MUAHAHA.U never KNOWWW, in the middle of the night................ur doll may just.............start..............to...........imagine the rest urself.
So dolls are out as well.
Talked talked talked till 5am then Ainnah got sleepy again.Hanged up but i still couldnt sleep.
DAMNATION.
DUDS.BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORED.Im going to find someting to munch on.BUH BYE PPL.
Friday, November 21, 2008
21 Nov 08
BOOORING.
Met Khalid for lunch just now.Wanted to ask Mich but she just finished her CCA.DUD.
I tink im gonna die of boredom soon enough.Get a life man.
IS EVRYBODY OUT THERE DEAD???
Ainnah is busy wit homework,as always,and Syafiq is currently suffering from depression becos of Ainnah's rejections,and Khalid is suffering from post exam stress.As for Mich, well she has her own problems as well.
So is there ANYONE who is free???Yes i know who.SYAHIRA.But im SO NOT going out wit HER.Freaking hate her.
Abang says im TOO rude to her.LIKE WADEVER MAN.Who cares about being rude to HER.DUHHHH.
God.
Mich Mich Mich Mich.
I tink im obsessed.
Wads the difference?Fiqal.Me.Arent we both malay guys?Except tat im older by 2 years.But arent we still the typical type of GUYS?
Wad did Fiqal ever DO to make u so.............so, u know.He broke ur heart.I didnt.And i can help u put it back together.
Isnt tat the best ending?I just DONT UNDERSTAND GIRLS.
BOOORING.
Met Khalid for lunch just now.Wanted to ask Mich but she just finished her CCA.DUD.
I tink im gonna die of boredom soon enough.Get a life man.
IS EVRYBODY OUT THERE DEAD???
Ainnah is busy wit homework,as always,and Syafiq is currently suffering from depression becos of Ainnah's rejections,and Khalid is suffering from post exam stress.As for Mich, well she has her own problems as well.
So is there ANYONE who is free???Yes i know who.SYAHIRA.But im SO NOT going out wit HER.Freaking hate her.
Abang says im TOO rude to her.LIKE WADEVER MAN.Who cares about being rude to HER.DUHHHH.
God.
Mich Mich Mich Mich.
I tink im obsessed.
Wads the difference?Fiqal.Me.Arent we both malay guys?Except tat im older by 2 years.But arent we still the typical type of GUYS?
Wad did Fiqal ever DO to make u so.............so, u know.He broke ur heart.I didnt.And i can help u put it back together.
Isnt tat the best ending?I just DONT UNDERSTAND GIRLS.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
18 Nov 08
O-LEVELS ARE FINALLY OVER.
Celebrated wit Khalid on Saturday.Went arcade and we spent $30 altogether at the arcade.
Then went out wit Mich,Ainnah and Syafiq on Sun.Spent the day at Pasir Ris Park.Poor Mich, she fell sick the nxt day.
Because we were like cycling for three hours, and then went to play in the sea, got wet, caught a cold and Mich had a slight fever on Sun evening.Poor thing.
I think she wanted to go out wit Li Ting and Rashid on Mon, but had fever, couldnt go.Awww.
And she still insists on going for guzheng practice today.Its like 4HOURs.
Asked her to bring along her medicine in case she feels unwell in the middle of practice.
And then Ainnah was like scolding me.K this is like the exact words she said:"Why did u let Adik go play in the sea?I know ur motto is give her wadever she wants but do u know how DANGEROUS it is?"
Wad man.So let her scold scold scold.
Boring.
I shall go find some entertainment.BYE.
O-LEVELS ARE FINALLY OVER.
Celebrated wit Khalid on Saturday.Went arcade and we spent $30 altogether at the arcade.
Then went out wit Mich,Ainnah and Syafiq on Sun.Spent the day at Pasir Ris Park.Poor Mich, she fell sick the nxt day.
Because we were like cycling for three hours, and then went to play in the sea, got wet, caught a cold and Mich had a slight fever on Sun evening.Poor thing.
I think she wanted to go out wit Li Ting and Rashid on Mon, but had fever, couldnt go.Awww.
And she still insists on going for guzheng practice today.Its like 4HOURs.
Asked her to bring along her medicine in case she feels unwell in the middle of practice.
And then Ainnah was like scolding me.K this is like the exact words she said:"Why did u let Adik go play in the sea?I know ur motto is give her wadever she wants but do u know how DANGEROUS it is?"
Wad man.So let her scold scold scold.
Boring.
I shall go find some entertainment.BYE.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
13 Nov 08
Jonas Brothers - When you look me in the eyes
If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you
there's gotta be a million reasons why it's true
when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
when you're right here by my side
when you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes
How long will I be waiting
To be with you again?
I'm gonna tell you that I love you
in the best way that I can
I can't take a day without you here
you're the light
That makes my darkness disappear
when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
when you're right here by my side
when you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes
More and more
I start to realize
I can reach my tomorrow
I can hold my head up high
And it's all because you're by my side
when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
when you're right here by my side
when I hold you in my arms
I know that's it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go
'Cause when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
(It's all right)
when you're right here by my side
(By my side)
when you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Oh, I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes
Jonas Brothers - When you look me in the eyes
If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you
there's gotta be a million reasons why it's true
when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
when you're right here by my side
when you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes
How long will I be waiting
To be with you again?
I'm gonna tell you that I love you
in the best way that I can
I can't take a day without you here
you're the light
That makes my darkness disappear
when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
when you're right here by my side
when you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes
More and more
I start to realize
I can reach my tomorrow
I can hold my head up high
And it's all because you're by my side
when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
when you're right here by my side
when I hold you in my arms
I know that's it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go
'Cause when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
(It's all right)
when you're right here by my side
(By my side)
when you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Oh, I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
12 Nov 08
Okay, the 100 things.I will be updating this list frequently.Mich, i will prove to u tat i know u much better than Fiqal does, even though hes known u for a longer period of time.
1.When ure angry,u normally end up crying as u shout at the person.
2.U seldom tell lies,and when u do,it is often a white lie and is told to help someone else.
3.U are scared of heights,and even walking on a 50 cm high balancing beam makes u scared out of ur wits.
4.U can only fall asleep when u are facing an open window, on the contrary, u cant fall asleep if ur back is facing the window.
5.U hate milk so much tat drinking milk is like drinking the most acidic drink in the world;its a torture to you.
6.U forget things so easily tat even after arguing wit someone, u can forget it completely the next morning.(I know this becos i can still rmb the time when u argued wit Fiqal and the nxt day, u totally forgot and even waved to them.U only rmbered aft Puteri reminded u tat u were supposed to be giving them the cold shoulder.)
7.U daydream so often and so easily tat when nobody talks to u for about 10 minutes,u start slipping into ur own dreamland.(Which means tat when ure not talking and absolutely still, its most likely tat ure daydreaming.)
8.U can laugh at almost EVERY SINGLE THING in tis world,and u can even laugh out loud when u rmb something that happened a month ago.
9.Ur favourite food changes from day to day.
10.U are afraid of the sound of thunder and heavy rain,and u stay in ur bedroom during thunderstorms becos ure afraid.
11.U get the most angry when someone interrupts u when u are playing the piano.
12.U dont show ur true emotions in front of strangers,and tats why u seldom cry.If u cry,it means either ure really really afraid or upset.
13.Usually,aft arguing wit someone,u stop being angry aft 30mins.
15.U are really really REALLY a Blur Queen.
16.U secretly wish tat one day,u can perform in a grand theatre and play on a grand piano wit thousands of people as ur audience,listening to u.
17.U like sunshine because it makes u feel loved.
18.U are contented easily and even giving u a surprise bar of chocolate can make u really happy.
19.U believe tat all humans are kind by nature,no matter who they are and wad they've done before.
20.U hate rules because they make u feel like a bird locked up in a cage,but u still abide by dem cos u wan to be a gd citizen.
21.When u play the piano, and Fiqal's outside, all the feeling is gone.U usually concentrate the most when playing the piano, but if Fiqal is nearby, all the feelings u put in when playing the piano are gone.Like a zombie playing the piano.Why can he affect u like tat?Why not me?
22.U really treasure friendships and ur family ties.
23.U have a passion for playing the piano,and to u, its ur whole world.
24.Whenever u get a new piano score,u get really excited and u will immediately start playing it,and most of the time,u can master it within the same day.
25.U love playing on the swing, even now when ure a big gal already,becos it makes u feel like u can reach the sky.
26.U are the sort who doesnt like to talk about ur problems,but yet u are willing to listen to other people's problems,hoping u can do someting to help.
27.U love music,and it really influences ur mood.
28.U feel tat evryone is equal and so, evryone shld have an equal chance and be treated equally.
29.U wear ur heart on ur sleeve, and when ure upset or happy, its just so easy to tell.
30.Ure fascinated by magic tricks,and really love watching magicians perform.
31.U often wonder if there is really a place called Heaven in the skies where the souls of good people go to when they die.
32.U can fall asleep anywhere,becos u dont feel guarded about the world at all.
33.U love eating chocolates,and anyting tat has chocolate in it except for chocolate milk.
34.When u keep making mistakes when playing the piano,u get really frustrated and u just bang the keys and walk off.
35.U dont like doing tings halfway,and so,no matter wad ure doing,u will continue throughout the whole process.
36.U are really really hardworking.(I tink evrybody can tell)
37.U cant stay up late like other ppl unless ure watching a horror movie becos ur brain automatically shuts down at 9pm.
38.U are really straightforward and just say wad u think or feel,unlike some ppl who scheme against others and are really cunning.
39.Ure a happy-go-lucky girl.Easily contented,always laughing.
40.U hate flowers becos they trigger ur allergy problem.
41.U used to love eating chocolate teddy biscuits as a child.
42.The one fav food u will always love is the EBI TEMPURA.U ate it once as a little kid and got hooked onto it, and whenever ur parents ordered it for u,nobody would fight wit u to eat it.It was ALL YOURS.
43.U cant stand being alone and tats why u can make new friends anywhere.
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Okay, the 100 things.I will be updating this list frequently.Mich, i will prove to u tat i know u much better than Fiqal does, even though hes known u for a longer period of time.
1.When ure angry,u normally end up crying as u shout at the person.
2.U seldom tell lies,and when u do,it is often a white lie and is told to help someone else.
3.U are scared of heights,and even walking on a 50 cm high balancing beam makes u scared out of ur wits.
4.U can only fall asleep when u are facing an open window, on the contrary, u cant fall asleep if ur back is facing the window.
5.U hate milk so much tat drinking milk is like drinking the most acidic drink in the world;its a torture to you.
6.U forget things so easily tat even after arguing wit someone, u can forget it completely the next morning.(I know this becos i can still rmb the time when u argued wit Fiqal and the nxt day, u totally forgot and even waved to them.U only rmbered aft Puteri reminded u tat u were supposed to be giving them the cold shoulder.)
7.U daydream so often and so easily tat when nobody talks to u for about 10 minutes,u start slipping into ur own dreamland.(Which means tat when ure not talking and absolutely still, its most likely tat ure daydreaming.)
8.U can laugh at almost EVERY SINGLE THING in tis world,and u can even laugh out loud when u rmb something that happened a month ago.
9.Ur favourite food changes from day to day.
10.U are afraid of the sound of thunder and heavy rain,and u stay in ur bedroom during thunderstorms becos ure afraid.
11.U get the most angry when someone interrupts u when u are playing the piano.
12.U dont show ur true emotions in front of strangers,and tats why u seldom cry.If u cry,it means either ure really really afraid or upset.
13.Usually,aft arguing wit someone,u stop being angry aft 30mins.
15.U are really really REALLY a Blur Queen.
16.U secretly wish tat one day,u can perform in a grand theatre and play on a grand piano wit thousands of people as ur audience,listening to u.
17.U like sunshine because it makes u feel loved.
18.U are contented easily and even giving u a surprise bar of chocolate can make u really happy.
19.U believe tat all humans are kind by nature,no matter who they are and wad they've done before.
20.U hate rules because they make u feel like a bird locked up in a cage,but u still abide by dem cos u wan to be a gd citizen.
21.When u play the piano, and Fiqal's outside, all the feeling is gone.U usually concentrate the most when playing the piano, but if Fiqal is nearby, all the feelings u put in when playing the piano are gone.Like a zombie playing the piano.Why can he affect u like tat?Why not me?
22.U really treasure friendships and ur family ties.
23.U have a passion for playing the piano,and to u, its ur whole world.
24.Whenever u get a new piano score,u get really excited and u will immediately start playing it,and most of the time,u can master it within the same day.
25.U love playing on the swing, even now when ure a big gal already,becos it makes u feel like u can reach the sky.
26.U are the sort who doesnt like to talk about ur problems,but yet u are willing to listen to other people's problems,hoping u can do someting to help.
27.U love music,and it really influences ur mood.
28.U feel tat evryone is equal and so, evryone shld have an equal chance and be treated equally.
29.U wear ur heart on ur sleeve, and when ure upset or happy, its just so easy to tell.
30.Ure fascinated by magic tricks,and really love watching magicians perform.
31.U often wonder if there is really a place called Heaven in the skies where the souls of good people go to when they die.
32.U can fall asleep anywhere,becos u dont feel guarded about the world at all.
33.U love eating chocolates,and anyting tat has chocolate in it except for chocolate milk.
34.When u keep making mistakes when playing the piano,u get really frustrated and u just bang the keys and walk off.
35.U dont like doing tings halfway,and so,no matter wad ure doing,u will continue throughout the whole process.
36.U are really really hardworking.(I tink evrybody can tell)
37.U cant stay up late like other ppl unless ure watching a horror movie becos ur brain automatically shuts down at 9pm.
38.U are really straightforward and just say wad u think or feel,unlike some ppl who scheme against others and are really cunning.
39.Ure a happy-go-lucky girl.Easily contented,always laughing.
40.U hate flowers becos they trigger ur allergy problem.
41.U used to love eating chocolate teddy biscuits as a child.
42.The one fav food u will always love is the EBI TEMPURA.U ate it once as a little kid and got hooked onto it, and whenever ur parents ordered it for u,nobody would fight wit u to eat it.It was ALL YOURS.
43.U cant stand being alone and tats why u can make new friends anywhere.
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12 Nov 08
Wednesday.Bright morning with lotta sunshine.The kind Mich loves.
So...walked Mich home yesterday.She just finished her guzheng practice.Met her at T-mart then walked home wit her.Shocker.
She went home to change her clothes while i waited in the void deck.Saw Fiqal and Zul.The two bastards.
But cos Nabilah was there, i didnt shout vulgar words at them or things like tat.Jus kept quiet.Mich wld be upset as well if i started arguing wit them.=(
But then, she was unusually quiet yesterday.Normally, if she sees Fiqal, she would pretend not to see him and jus start blabbering and joking wit me.
But she didnt yesterday.Ok, tat is NOT NORMAL.Like the calm before the storm??
I didnt say anyting either.
But her eyes gave her away.
How many times must she pretend to be ignorant when in fact, shes hurting inside??I mean, come on, Fiqal was RIGHT THERE, 2m away from her.And they didnt even smile at each other.I cant even imagine wad it feels like.
The way she looked when she saw him.The way she pretended not to care.The way shes always thinking of others before doing something.
I asked her right then to be my girlfriend.
She kind of indirectly rejected me.But at least it isnt rejecting yet.
She thought it was kind of impossible.
Said tat her kind of boyfriend mus know her well, so, she asked me to list out 100 tings about her tat most people dont know.
Michelle, i know u still believe tat deres still hope between u and Fiqal, but i wont give up.I WILL list out these 100 tings.
I want u to know tat i know u as well as Fiqal, and i will be much better than him.
Wednesday.Bright morning with lotta sunshine.The kind Mich loves.
So...walked Mich home yesterday.She just finished her guzheng practice.Met her at T-mart then walked home wit her.Shocker.
She went home to change her clothes while i waited in the void deck.Saw Fiqal and Zul.The two bastards.
But cos Nabilah was there, i didnt shout vulgar words at them or things like tat.Jus kept quiet.Mich wld be upset as well if i started arguing wit them.=(
But then, she was unusually quiet yesterday.Normally, if she sees Fiqal, she would pretend not to see him and jus start blabbering and joking wit me.
But she didnt yesterday.Ok, tat is NOT NORMAL.Like the calm before the storm??
I didnt say anyting either.
But her eyes gave her away.
How many times must she pretend to be ignorant when in fact, shes hurting inside??I mean, come on, Fiqal was RIGHT THERE, 2m away from her.And they didnt even smile at each other.I cant even imagine wad it feels like.
The way she looked when she saw him.The way she pretended not to care.The way shes always thinking of others before doing something.
I asked her right then to be my girlfriend.
She kind of indirectly rejected me.But at least it isnt rejecting yet.
She thought it was kind of impossible.
Said tat her kind of boyfriend mus know her well, so, she asked me to list out 100 tings about her tat most people dont know.
Michelle, i know u still believe tat deres still hope between u and Fiqal, but i wont give up.I WILL list out these 100 tings.
I want u to know tat i know u as well as Fiqal, and i will be much better than him.
Monday, November 10, 2008
10 Nov 2008
Monday morning.Overcast sky.
DUDS.O levels are finally gonna be over soon.YEAH.Hanged out wit Khalid and Zul at the void decks yesterday aftnoon.Talked crap.Played music.The usual.
Went to Mich's house on Sat.Her parents were out and her sister had ballet class.Helped her clear her room.It was already quite clean.But she insisted on clearing out her toybox.Not tat she actually plays wit the toys anymore.
Chatted about her holidays, what she planned to do, about Ainnah and Syafiq, and she told me all about this drama serial shes addicted to.
We were quite happy chatting at first, but then tat stupid ring had to ruin evryting.We were clearing up her toy box when i found some dumb black ring.Shld have hid it from her.Stupid me.
She told me Fiqal had given it to her 3 years ago.Woah.3 years.She had almost totally forgotten about it.She became upset again.Refused to talk much.The only tings she said was regretting not cherishing the few things he gave her before.
God she treats tat ring like some treasure now.
I dont see her treating the tings I give her like treasure.Hmpf.
But its okay.One day, she will come to see that im the one who treats her better.I will never ever do anyting to make her sad.As long as she needs me, i'll be by her side.
Monday morning.Overcast sky.
DUDS.O levels are finally gonna be over soon.YEAH.Hanged out wit Khalid and Zul at the void decks yesterday aftnoon.Talked crap.Played music.The usual.
Went to Mich's house on Sat.Her parents were out and her sister had ballet class.Helped her clear her room.It was already quite clean.But she insisted on clearing out her toybox.Not tat she actually plays wit the toys anymore.
Chatted about her holidays, what she planned to do, about Ainnah and Syafiq, and she told me all about this drama serial shes addicted to.
We were quite happy chatting at first, but then tat stupid ring had to ruin evryting.We were clearing up her toy box when i found some dumb black ring.Shld have hid it from her.Stupid me.
She told me Fiqal had given it to her 3 years ago.Woah.3 years.She had almost totally forgotten about it.She became upset again.Refused to talk much.The only tings she said was regretting not cherishing the few things he gave her before.
God she treats tat ring like some treasure now.
I dont see her treating the tings I give her like treasure.Hmpf.
But its okay.One day, she will come to see that im the one who treats her better.I will never ever do anyting to make her sad.As long as she needs me, i'll be by her side.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
5 Nov 2008
WEDNESDAY.
So woke up to a bright morning.Great start.
GOing back to school later.GOD.Khalid called me last nite.Said he was rushing out his studying.Who ask him so late then start.Shld have started long ago wad.Like ME.LOL.Self praise is an international disgrace.HAHA.Tats Mich's favourite line for ppl who boast about themselves.
Walked Mich home on Monday.She went Sentosa wit her frens, took the damn Skyride, got freaked out and cried.Poor ting.She was on the bus home when she called and told me about it.Scared me as well.She had been crying and was frightened and yet i wasnt there wit her.
Really sorry Mich.
And not just for this.For evryting i havent been able to do for u.I know tat the past two years, u've been living in ur own world.Although i only met u again during June, ur Kakak and Abang told me tat i cant judge u by ur appearance.
Surprising rite?
Ur unhappiness has never EVER escaped ur Kakak and Abang's attention.They know.They care.But they dont KNOW how to help.They really dote on u.
I know tat no matter how hard i try, i can never be wad Fiqal was to u.I know tat ure still waiting for him.But its already been TWO YEARS.Wad more do u think can possibly change?Its not like ur families will live in harmony again jus overnight.
Mich i know ure upset, unhappy, i know.
I dont feel good either whenever i see u and see how hard ure trying not to let ur unhappiness show.It has never escaped my attention as well.
U cant go on like this for the rest of ur life.U have to move on.U cant be waiting for him like tat forever.Mich there are ppl who care about u.
And i am one of them.
I dont want to see u so unhappy.Its....its more than unhappiness.Its like......like waiting for him has already become part of ur life.
ITS NOT sweetheart.
I want to see tat little girl again.The one i first met 3 years ago.The one who was always bubbly, always springing and jumping about, always so enthusiastic, so full of joy.
Look at urself now.Have u ever wondered who u have become?
From the one who was always radiating sunshine, who was so happy, to someone whos only hope is to see him.Fiqal.
People who didnt know u before the year 2005 may not notice the difference.But I do.Ur Kakak and Abang do.
U know wad u look like now?Its like a part of u has gone into a deep sleep.And the rest of u is jus lost and confused, wandering about, waiting for him to find u.
And u know wad?Hes NOT going to come back for u.
Wake up.Hes never going to come back for u.
WEDNESDAY.
So woke up to a bright morning.Great start.
GOing back to school later.GOD.Khalid called me last nite.Said he was rushing out his studying.Who ask him so late then start.Shld have started long ago wad.Like ME.LOL.Self praise is an international disgrace.HAHA.Tats Mich's favourite line for ppl who boast about themselves.
Walked Mich home on Monday.She went Sentosa wit her frens, took the damn Skyride, got freaked out and cried.Poor ting.She was on the bus home when she called and told me about it.Scared me as well.She had been crying and was frightened and yet i wasnt there wit her.
Really sorry Mich.
And not just for this.For evryting i havent been able to do for u.I know tat the past two years, u've been living in ur own world.Although i only met u again during June, ur Kakak and Abang told me tat i cant judge u by ur appearance.
Surprising rite?
Ur unhappiness has never EVER escaped ur Kakak and Abang's attention.They know.They care.But they dont KNOW how to help.They really dote on u.
I know tat no matter how hard i try, i can never be wad Fiqal was to u.I know tat ure still waiting for him.But its already been TWO YEARS.Wad more do u think can possibly change?Its not like ur families will live in harmony again jus overnight.
Mich i know ure upset, unhappy, i know.
I dont feel good either whenever i see u and see how hard ure trying not to let ur unhappiness show.It has never escaped my attention as well.
U cant go on like this for the rest of ur life.U have to move on.U cant be waiting for him like tat forever.Mich there are ppl who care about u.
And i am one of them.
I dont want to see u so unhappy.Its....its more than unhappiness.Its like......like waiting for him has already become part of ur life.
ITS NOT sweetheart.
I want to see tat little girl again.The one i first met 3 years ago.The one who was always bubbly, always springing and jumping about, always so enthusiastic, so full of joy.
Look at urself now.Have u ever wondered who u have become?
From the one who was always radiating sunshine, who was so happy, to someone whos only hope is to see him.Fiqal.
People who didnt know u before the year 2005 may not notice the difference.But I do.Ur Kakak and Abang do.
U know wad u look like now?Its like a part of u has gone into a deep sleep.And the rest of u is jus lost and confused, wandering about, waiting for him to find u.
And u know wad?Hes NOT going to come back for u.
Wake up.Hes never going to come back for u.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
30 Oct 2008
WEDNESDAY.
Countdown to the day the O levels finally end.LOL.
Hmmmmmmm.So yesterday was quite boring.Went TM aft the exams wit Khalid.
AND YOU KNOW WAD?
Paths of enemies meet.We actually saw Syahira at Montip in Century Square.Damn it.She was wit the rest of the gals.The so called "anti mich grp".BITCHES.
I pretended not to see her.But she had to come up to me and say some sarcastic tings like:"So, how are u and Michelle huh? I feel sooo upset for her."And alot of other tings.If Khalid wasnt there, i probably would have slapped her.
Shes just SO DAMN BITCHY.I really feel like slapping her and telling her to keep her fucking mouth shut in front of Mich.DAMN.
So in the end she walked out aft Ara told her to jus let it go.
Bought a red smiley necklace for Mich.Well, to remind her to be cheerful.Haha.
Freaking bored.
Mich told me shes gonna watch "The Coffin" wit Rashid and Li Ting tmr.Maybe i shld go wit her.Shes the type who gets freaked out,and then starts to have nightmares.
BOREEEEEEEEEED.
Stayed up late last nite talking to Mich on the phone.Talked till bout 11pm.It is SO unlike her to stay up so late.
Talked bout her friends, mostly Li Ting, Gracie and Rashid, then talked bout her Guzheng practice earlier in the aftnoon.Let her rant about it, talking about how boring it was, and then we started discussing ways to make Syafiq admit he likes Ainnah.LOL.DUDS.She told me about her secret fear of getting into the top class because then she would have to work super hard to stay in the top 10, or maybe top20.
Discussed her class, wad it was like, told me about all the funny tings they did, about her form teacher, how retarded he was, and that she would miss them all when she went into her new class in sec 3.
I didnt really mind tat she did the talking most of the time.At least i got to listen to her voice, let her talk and talk and forget about all her worries for once.
Bout time gotta go back to school.BYE PEOPLE.
WEDNESDAY.
Countdown to the day the O levels finally end.LOL.
Hmmmmmmm.So yesterday was quite boring.Went TM aft the exams wit Khalid.
AND YOU KNOW WAD?
Paths of enemies meet.We actually saw Syahira at Montip in Century Square.Damn it.She was wit the rest of the gals.The so called "anti mich grp".BITCHES.
I pretended not to see her.But she had to come up to me and say some sarcastic tings like:"So, how are u and Michelle huh? I feel sooo upset for her."And alot of other tings.If Khalid wasnt there, i probably would have slapped her.
Shes just SO DAMN BITCHY.I really feel like slapping her and telling her to keep her fucking mouth shut in front of Mich.DAMN.
So in the end she walked out aft Ara told her to jus let it go.
Bought a red smiley necklace for Mich.Well, to remind her to be cheerful.Haha.
Freaking bored.
Mich told me shes gonna watch "The Coffin" wit Rashid and Li Ting tmr.Maybe i shld go wit her.Shes the type who gets freaked out,and then starts to have nightmares.
BOREEEEEEEEEED.
Stayed up late last nite talking to Mich on the phone.Talked till bout 11pm.It is SO unlike her to stay up so late.
Talked bout her friends, mostly Li Ting, Gracie and Rashid, then talked bout her Guzheng practice earlier in the aftnoon.Let her rant about it, talking about how boring it was, and then we started discussing ways to make Syafiq admit he likes Ainnah.LOL.DUDS.She told me about her secret fear of getting into the top class because then she would have to work super hard to stay in the top 10, or maybe top20.
Discussed her class, wad it was like, told me about all the funny tings they did, about her form teacher, how retarded he was, and that she would miss them all when she went into her new class in sec 3.
I didnt really mind tat she did the talking most of the time.At least i got to listen to her voice, let her talk and talk and forget about all her worries for once.
Bout time gotta go back to school.BYE PEOPLE.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
26 Oct 2008
Okays.
SO its Sunday.BORED.
Had some sort of a sleepover at Syafiq's house last nite wit Mich and Ainnah.Mich was kind of freaked out about taking Thriple Science.She said the sch had called her on Friday asking her if she was interested in taking Higher Mother Tongue.And you know wad?She actually turned down the offer.I mean COME ON, its such a good chance.But, I will support her.As long as she thinks tats wads best for her.
The four of us were like watching a horror movie in the living room, but Mich got really really freaked out(it was NC 16), and shes like the youngest among us, so in the end she wanted to jus sleep first.
Poor gal.
It was like really the first time i got to watch her sleep.So innocent,i think tat the only time she ever really gets to escape from reality is in dreamland.
Maybe.I guess.
But somehow, Fiqal still appeared in her dreams.She talked.Said his name.Damn him.Why is he always the one whos more important to her?
Wadever.Someday, she will realize how much i've done for her.
But at least shes spending more time wit me nowadays.TAT is quite enough for me.
And i HATE YOU KHALID.
BODOH.
He actually told me to jus give up on Mich.Shes aft all jus a gal.SHES JUS A GAL? Quote:"Shes jus a gal aft all, u used to jus flirt.Why get so serious tis time?Wad do u think it is? Prince Charming actually fell for Cinderella?Oh come ON."
HE IS SUCH A JERK.
Okays.
SO its Sunday.BORED.
Had some sort of a sleepover at Syafiq's house last nite wit Mich and Ainnah.Mich was kind of freaked out about taking Thriple Science.She said the sch had called her on Friday asking her if she was interested in taking Higher Mother Tongue.And you know wad?She actually turned down the offer.I mean COME ON, its such a good chance.But, I will support her.As long as she thinks tats wads best for her.
The four of us were like watching a horror movie in the living room, but Mich got really really freaked out(it was NC 16), and shes like the youngest among us, so in the end she wanted to jus sleep first.
Poor gal.
It was like really the first time i got to watch her sleep.So innocent,i think tat the only time she ever really gets to escape from reality is in dreamland.
Maybe.I guess.
But somehow, Fiqal still appeared in her dreams.She talked.Said his name.Damn him.Why is he always the one whos more important to her?
Wadever.Someday, she will realize how much i've done for her.
But at least shes spending more time wit me nowadays.TAT is quite enough for me.
And i HATE YOU KHALID.
BODOH.
He actually told me to jus give up on Mich.Shes aft all jus a gal.SHES JUS A GAL? Quote:"Shes jus a gal aft all, u used to jus flirt.Why get so serious tis time?Wad do u think it is? Prince Charming actually fell for Cinderella?Oh come ON."
HE IS SUCH A JERK.
Friday, October 24, 2008
24 Oct 2008
DUDS.
Woke up to a drizzling morning.Damn.It made me feel so depressed.
So, i am NOT going to talk about the exam papers cos im gonna get pissed off if i do.Especially the english compo.I need to seriously be more creative.
And Mich is gonna take Thriple science.WOW.Shes good.
Well, i'll support her anyway.
Ainnah is taking thriple science too.OKAY.So evryone seems to be getting on fine in school.
Went to Mich's house on Wed.She wanted to go to Popular to see the Science books.DUD.THe physics O-level book scared the hell out of her.All the formulas and evryting.But then, she still decided to take Thriple science.I was walking her home aft tat.
But we saw Fiqal in the void deck.
I dont know how Mich felt but wadever it was, it wasnt anger.
Somehow, she still believes tat one day, evrytings going to be like the past again.Evryone living in harmony again, no arguements, no scoldings, nothing.
Although i know tats never going to happen again, i dont wan to hurt her by telling her how impossible tat is.I jus rather let her continue in her own world, where there is no cruelty, evryone lives in peace, animals are treated kindly, no robberies, no people living in poverty, her world is just so simple.
Too bad, but in this world we live in, its not like tat at all.Evryone schemes, almost evryone at least, people rob, there is so much out there in this cruel world Mich doesnt have any idea about.
I had to half drag her away.If i didnt, i think she would have continued standing there in a daze.Hah.Tat gal.
Fiqal saw me.Then her.He was probably as dazed as her.Maybe alittle more.A little jealousy.Hah.
I jus glared at him.Im not going to be nice to someone who breaks promises, who hurts Mich, who cant even decide which is more important to him.Family? Or Mich?
Bored.
Khalid called yesterday.DUD.Said he is NOT looking forward to getting his O-level results.HAHAHA.Loser.
Well, i guess evryone is having a kinda wadeva life rite now.And Syafiq tat idiot still doesnt have the courage to officially ask Ainnah out on a DATE.
HMMMMMMMM.Maybe i shld give alittle help.
Ainnah is nice.Filial, caring, gentle, shes kind of elegant overall.But Mich is cute.Shes mischevious, funny, blur like a sotong, clumsy, forgetful, but these are wad makes her so unique.
OH COME ON SYAFIQ, JUS ASK HER OUT.IDIOOOOOOT.
BORING.
DUDS.
Woke up to a drizzling morning.Damn.It made me feel so depressed.
So, i am NOT going to talk about the exam papers cos im gonna get pissed off if i do.Especially the english compo.I need to seriously be more creative.
And Mich is gonna take Thriple science.WOW.Shes good.
Well, i'll support her anyway.
Ainnah is taking thriple science too.OKAY.So evryone seems to be getting on fine in school.
Went to Mich's house on Wed.She wanted to go to Popular to see the Science books.DUD.THe physics O-level book scared the hell out of her.All the formulas and evryting.But then, she still decided to take Thriple science.I was walking her home aft tat.
But we saw Fiqal in the void deck.
I dont know how Mich felt but wadever it was, it wasnt anger.
Somehow, she still believes tat one day, evrytings going to be like the past again.Evryone living in harmony again, no arguements, no scoldings, nothing.
Although i know tats never going to happen again, i dont wan to hurt her by telling her how impossible tat is.I jus rather let her continue in her own world, where there is no cruelty, evryone lives in peace, animals are treated kindly, no robberies, no people living in poverty, her world is just so simple.
Too bad, but in this world we live in, its not like tat at all.Evryone schemes, almost evryone at least, people rob, there is so much out there in this cruel world Mich doesnt have any idea about.
I had to half drag her away.If i didnt, i think she would have continued standing there in a daze.Hah.Tat gal.
Fiqal saw me.Then her.He was probably as dazed as her.Maybe alittle more.A little jealousy.Hah.
I jus glared at him.Im not going to be nice to someone who breaks promises, who hurts Mich, who cant even decide which is more important to him.Family? Or Mich?
Bored.
Khalid called yesterday.DUD.Said he is NOT looking forward to getting his O-level results.HAHAHA.Loser.
Well, i guess evryone is having a kinda wadeva life rite now.And Syafiq tat idiot still doesnt have the courage to officially ask Ainnah out on a DATE.
HMMMMMMMM.Maybe i shld give alittle help.
Ainnah is nice.Filial, caring, gentle, shes kind of elegant overall.But Mich is cute.Shes mischevious, funny, blur like a sotong, clumsy, forgetful, but these are wad makes her so unique.
OH COME ON SYAFIQ, JUS ASK HER OUT.IDIOOOOOOT.
BORING.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
19 Oct 2008
SUNDAY.
Woke up like really late today.11.15am.OVERSLEPT.My god.
So i suddenly rmbered tat i was meeting Faiz and Khalid to play soccer.Had to rush out of bed to bathe.Stupid alarm clock.It was supposed to wake me up at 9.It didnt ring damn it.
Called Mich aft i bathed.She was like outside wit her family.Wanted to ask her if she wanted to go to the soccer match.DUDS.
Abang is meeting some of his old secondary sch friends today.Went out early in the morn.I jus realised he looks upon Mich as a younger sister.Well, i guess shes really likeable.All the crazy laughter, the jokes, the sincerity.Hahahahahahas.
Syahira was at T-mart macdonalds wit Ainnah.SURPRISE VISIT AINNAH.
Didnt expect to see her here today.Well, Ang Mo Kio is KINDA far from here anyway.XP
DUD.
I guess its gonna be a boring day.
SUNDAY.
Woke up like really late today.11.15am.OVERSLEPT.My god.
So i suddenly rmbered tat i was meeting Faiz and Khalid to play soccer.Had to rush out of bed to bathe.Stupid alarm clock.It was supposed to wake me up at 9.It didnt ring damn it.
Called Mich aft i bathed.She was like outside wit her family.Wanted to ask her if she wanted to go to the soccer match.DUDS.
Abang is meeting some of his old secondary sch friends today.Went out early in the morn.I jus realised he looks upon Mich as a younger sister.Well, i guess shes really likeable.All the crazy laughter, the jokes, the sincerity.Hahahahahahas.
Syahira was at T-mart macdonalds wit Ainnah.SURPRISE VISIT AINNAH.
Didnt expect to see her here today.Well, Ang Mo Kio is KINDA far from here anyway.XP
DUD.
I guess its gonna be a boring day.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
2 Sep 2008
HAPPY BDAE MICH SWEETHEART!!!!!!!
Bought her the Westlife CD she wanted, and then added on a "Students Across The Seven Seas" story book.Oh well, she loves tat series.
Cant celebrate her bdae wit her cos she has to go back to school for the WHOLE day for some dumb enrichment.
STUPID SCHOOL.OKay sorry im not insulting Ngee Ann, im jus saying they shouldnt have made students go back for the whole day.
GOing out wit Khalid later on.
BYE.
HAPPY BDAE MICH SWEETHEART!!!!!!!
Bought her the Westlife CD she wanted, and then added on a "Students Across The Seven Seas" story book.Oh well, she loves tat series.
Cant celebrate her bdae wit her cos she has to go back to school for the WHOLE day for some dumb enrichment.
STUPID SCHOOL.OKay sorry im not insulting Ngee Ann, im jus saying they shouldnt have made students go back for the whole day.
GOing out wit Khalid later on.
BYE.
6 Aug 2008
BAD HAIR DAY.
Omigod woke up in the morning and my hair was all flattened down like mud had jus been poured over it.
WHAT TO DO?No choice, i had to put tennis ball amount of hair gel in order to keep it up.
Damn.Had a hard time washing it off aft school.
LOL.
SO lame.Wanted to go out wit Mich, but then she said she had homework to do, so in the end i went out wit Syahira.
Okay i know Syahira doesnt like Mich.I mean they were so good friends rite?But eva since i made it clear tat i ONLY LIKE Mich, Syahira's been drifting from Mich.SO is it MY fault then?
Im so sorry Mich, didnt mean to make ur good friend hate u.
HMM.
Ate potato chips aft lunch, then listened to LInken PArk music until 4pm.GOing to eat dinner now.BYE.
BAD HAIR DAY.
Omigod woke up in the morning and my hair was all flattened down like mud had jus been poured over it.
WHAT TO DO?No choice, i had to put tennis ball amount of hair gel in order to keep it up.
Damn.Had a hard time washing it off aft school.
LOL.
SO lame.Wanted to go out wit Mich, but then she said she had homework to do, so in the end i went out wit Syahira.
Okay i know Syahira doesnt like Mich.I mean they were so good friends rite?But eva since i made it clear tat i ONLY LIKE Mich, Syahira's been drifting from Mich.SO is it MY fault then?
Im so sorry Mich, didnt mean to make ur good friend hate u.
HMM.
Ate potato chips aft lunch, then listened to LInken PArk music until 4pm.GOing to eat dinner now.BYE.
19 July 2008
SATURDAY MORNING.GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE.
So im gonna go out wit Syafiq,Ainnah and Mich later.
HMMMM.
I jus realised one freaking ting.Fiqal and Mich, Mich and Fiqal, they both came a long way together.ITS NOT FAIR.
I like Mich much more than Fiqal likes her.At the very least, i didnt do anyting to break her heart.YES TATS RITE.I freaking didnt.
Damn Fiqal.
We were so good friends.Until Mich appeared.Why did he have to be the one who broke her heart?
Family enmity.Yeah i understand, maybe they are jus not destined to be together rite?
ANd i learned tat SHAFIQAL is a taboo.A never to be spoken name infront of Mich.Ainnnah told me tat.Fiqal, or anything tat had to do wit him was a taboo.NOT TO BE SPOKEN IN FRONT OF MICH.An unspoken rule.
I know shes hurting inside.
Shes trying hard not to let anyone see it, not to let anyone know, but shes only a gal aft all.
Wad can i do to help?
SATURDAY MORNING.GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE.
So im gonna go out wit Syafiq,Ainnah and Mich later.
HMMMM.
I jus realised one freaking ting.Fiqal and Mich, Mich and Fiqal, they both came a long way together.ITS NOT FAIR.
I like Mich much more than Fiqal likes her.At the very least, i didnt do anyting to break her heart.YES TATS RITE.I freaking didnt.
Damn Fiqal.
We were so good friends.Until Mich appeared.Why did he have to be the one who broke her heart?
Family enmity.Yeah i understand, maybe they are jus not destined to be together rite?
ANd i learned tat SHAFIQAL is a taboo.A never to be spoken name infront of Mich.Ainnnah told me tat.Fiqal, or anything tat had to do wit him was a taboo.NOT TO BE SPOKEN IN FRONT OF MICH.An unspoken rule.
I know shes hurting inside.
Shes trying hard not to let anyone see it, not to let anyone know, but shes only a gal aft all.
Wad can i do to help?
7 June 2008
Went out wit Mich, Khalid, and Syafiq today.
I jus cant believe how lucky i am.Mich is jus like a gift from the gods.She was cute.Went round Bugis wit her as she looked at soft toys, bracelets, clothes, almost evryting seemed nice to her.Hahahahas.
Then we ate at Mac and then i walked Mich home cos she couldnt stay out too late.
Went home myself and then on the way bought a lil' bracelet for Mich.
END OF THE DAY.
Went out wit Mich, Khalid, and Syafiq today.
I jus cant believe how lucky i am.Mich is jus like a gift from the gods.She was cute.Went round Bugis wit her as she looked at soft toys, bracelets, clothes, almost evryting seemed nice to her.Hahahahas.
Then we ate at Mac and then i walked Mich home cos she couldnt stay out too late.
Went home myself and then on the way bought a lil' bracelet for Mich.
END OF THE DAY.
30 May 2008
IM A BUSY GUY.
Finally the holidays have like started.But must go back three days a wk for three wks for enrichment classes, remedial classes, all the shit.
FUCK.
But wadevas man.
Went to Fiqal's house today.Played World of Warcraft and then played X-box.And GUESS WHO I SAW WHEN WE WERE PLAYING IN THE CORRIDOR?
She looked so familiar, yet i couldnt really quite rmb her at first.And then suddenly Nabilah went up to her and asked if she could borrow her scooter to play.
In that exact instant that she smiled and agreed, i knew why she looked so familiar.
Michelle.
I met her the very first time about three years ago.She warmheartedly lent me her scooter when i asked her.Someone she had never met before.Her sincerity touched me rite at tat moment.
She was all grown up.Tat familiar smile nvr seemed to leave her lips.
Omigod i think she didnt even recognize me.I mean HELLOOOOO, she was only like primary five when she first met me.
THen Ainnah told her who i was.
It all seemed like a distant memory tat had come back into my life.
We continued rollerblading.Time passed so quickly.I jus hope to see her again soon.
IM A BUSY GUY.
Finally the holidays have like started.But must go back three days a wk for three wks for enrichment classes, remedial classes, all the shit.
FUCK.
But wadevas man.
Went to Fiqal's house today.Played World of Warcraft and then played X-box.And GUESS WHO I SAW WHEN WE WERE PLAYING IN THE CORRIDOR?
She looked so familiar, yet i couldnt really quite rmb her at first.And then suddenly Nabilah went up to her and asked if she could borrow her scooter to play.
In that exact instant that she smiled and agreed, i knew why she looked so familiar.
Michelle.
I met her the very first time about three years ago.She warmheartedly lent me her scooter when i asked her.Someone she had never met before.Her sincerity touched me rite at tat moment.
She was all grown up.Tat familiar smile nvr seemed to leave her lips.
Omigod i think she didnt even recognize me.I mean HELLOOOOO, she was only like primary five when she first met me.
THen Ainnah told her who i was.
It all seemed like a distant memory tat had come back into my life.
We continued rollerblading.Time passed so quickly.I jus hope to see her again soon.
7 Dec 2007
HOLIDAYS.
But still must go back for NCC training.Damn la.
So i went out wit Syahira, Fiqal, Khalid, and the rest today.
We were slacking and slacking.Then went to Khalid's house to watch this horror movie.LOL, Syahira was freaked out.Walked her home aft tat before going to 7 Eleven to buy some potato chips for munching on aft dinner.
DADADADADA.
GUess who i saw?
MR TAN KENG BOON.Omigod tat horrible DT teacher.He saw me before i had time to like run off and hide somewhere.Walked up to me and then started asking me tis and tat tis and tat.
NONE OF HIS BUSINESS wad im going out at nite.STUPID teacher.
HOLIDAYS.
But still must go back for NCC training.Damn la.
So i went out wit Syahira, Fiqal, Khalid, and the rest today.
We were slacking and slacking.Then went to Khalid's house to watch this horror movie.LOL, Syahira was freaked out.Walked her home aft tat before going to 7 Eleven to buy some potato chips for munching on aft dinner.
DADADADADA.
GUess who i saw?
MR TAN KENG BOON.Omigod tat horrible DT teacher.He saw me before i had time to like run off and hide somewhere.Walked up to me and then started asking me tis and tat tis and tat.
NONE OF HIS BUSINESS wad im going out at nite.STUPID teacher.
20 Nov 2007
Tatatata.School holidays are gonna start real soon.YES.
HMM.
Saw Ainnah today at T-mart.She was like carrying this whole load of groceries and so i went to help her carry it home.IM SUCH A GOODIE GOODIE GUY.LOL.
Met her adik.OMIGOD she was playing wit BARBIE DOLLS?!
Lamer.
Then went back to T-mart to slack.Walked round and round.Lame.
Khalid called me round 4pm, asked if i and Fiqal wanted to go to the void deck for a soccer game.Agreed immediately.
AND THERE GOES MY DAY.
Played till like 7pm before going home for dinner.
END OF DAY.
Tatatata.School holidays are gonna start real soon.YES.
HMM.
Saw Ainnah today at T-mart.She was like carrying this whole load of groceries and so i went to help her carry it home.IM SUCH A GOODIE GOODIE GUY.LOL.
Met her adik.OMIGOD she was playing wit BARBIE DOLLS?!
Lamer.
Then went back to T-mart to slack.Walked round and round.Lame.
Khalid called me round 4pm, asked if i and Fiqal wanted to go to the void deck for a soccer game.Agreed immediately.
AND THERE GOES MY DAY.
Played till like 7pm before going home for dinner.
END OF DAY.
10 Oct 2007
Darn.
Im still getting horrible results.
So Syafiq was such a loser today.Ate at Macdonalds wit him and Fiqal and then he spilled his coke.LAMER.
HMMMMMMM.
Saw this really cute gal today when playing soccer wit Syafiq.He thought she was cute too, but then, he only likes Ainnah.
Chatted wit the gal for some time.
OKAY I KNOW IM SUCH A FLIRT.
Well, i guess its okay.Im single anyway.
Darn.
Im still getting horrible results.
So Syafiq was such a loser today.Ate at Macdonalds wit him and Fiqal and then he spilled his coke.LAMER.
HMMMMMMM.
Saw this really cute gal today when playing soccer wit Syafiq.He thought she was cute too, but then, he only likes Ainnah.
Chatted wit the gal for some time.
OKAY I KNOW IM SUCH A FLIRT.
Well, i guess its okay.Im single anyway.
30 Sep 2007
OMIGOD TIME FLIES.
I had almost forgotten about my blog until now.
So its been like exactly one year since i last blogged.Sec three now already.LOL.
Still the same old me.Lamer.
SCHOOL STILL SUCKS.
FIQAL's BDAE TODAY.
HAPPY BDAE BROTHER.lol.
So aft school today hanged out at the void deck near tampines mart wit Fiqal and Khalid and Syahira.
Talked about some random tings.
i was CRAPPING all the way.
DUHHH.
P.S: I hate my Instructor.
OMIGOD TIME FLIES.
I had almost forgotten about my blog until now.
So its been like exactly one year since i last blogged.Sec three now already.LOL.
Still the same old me.Lamer.
SCHOOL STILL SUCKS.
FIQAL's BDAE TODAY.
HAPPY BDAE BROTHER.lol.
So aft school today hanged out at the void deck near tampines mart wit Fiqal and Khalid and Syahira.
Talked about some random tings.
i was CRAPPING all the way.
DUHHH.
P.S: I hate my Instructor.
25 Sep 2006
DADADA.Back from the school.Damn boring day.Had to listen to the principal's talk today.Boring.He kept emphasising the fact tat we must work hard cos its streaming year.Wadever.
Class was chaotic today.
Mr Lim didnt come.Then the relief teacher came in and evryone started cheering.
Faiz and the rest were kicking the soccer ball around the whole class and the relief teacher was like trying to consficate the ball.LOL.
Amirah had to redo her maths exercise.HAHAH.
Loser.
Walked home alone again.
END OF DAY.
DADADA.Back from the school.Damn boring day.Had to listen to the principal's talk today.Boring.He kept emphasising the fact tat we must work hard cos its streaming year.Wadever.
Class was chaotic today.
Mr Lim didnt come.Then the relief teacher came in and evryone started cheering.
Faiz and the rest were kicking the soccer ball around the whole class and the relief teacher was like trying to consficate the ball.LOL.
Amirah had to redo her maths exercise.HAHAH.
Loser.
Walked home alone again.
END OF DAY.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
18 Sep 2006
Met up wit Syafiq and the rest just now.BODOH FAIZ.Dont know how he cycle, in the end fell down.LOSER.
SECONDARY SCHOOL SUCKS.
Geography sucks as well.
Okay so in school i had to face the damn geo teacher and he was like talking crap most of the time.I THINK.
Well, i dont really know cos i was lost in my own thoughts.Then he called my name twice before i heard him then got scolded.YADADADADADA.Wadeva la damn teacher.
Met up wit Syafiq and the rest just now.BODOH FAIZ.Dont know how he cycle, in the end fell down.LOSER.
SECONDARY SCHOOL SUCKS.
Geography sucks as well.
Okay so in school i had to face the damn geo teacher and he was like talking crap most of the time.I THINK.
Well, i dont really know cos i was lost in my own thoughts.Then he called my name twice before i heard him then got scolded.YADADADADADA.Wadeva la damn teacher.
Thursday, September 7, 2006
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